Private Eyes, Their Watching You

Remember this relic classic from the early days of MTV? Hard to believe it was once a Top 40 Hit, huh? Or maybe it wasn't. I don't know. I didn't have time to fact check my music history with Kasey Kasem, ok? So shoot me.
 
Crap. Totally stuck in my head now.

Anyways.....

So, don't know if it was noticed by very many or not, but I took my blog private for a couple days to collect my thoughts.

Ya see, it was brought to my attention that I had a couple of new readers that were really close to home...by "home" I mean in my circle of life, not actually under my roof...and it threw me for a little loopty-lou.  

It's not like they found me & got tickled & couldn't wait to tease me - no, they just "found me". And then they formed an investigatve posse. Probably. Or maybe thats just my imagination running wild. Either way, they are reading me on the "D.L."- hence the necessity for a little Hall & Oat's and the reason for the flurry of questions in my head - like:

Why don't they say something?

Why are they so interested?

Do they find amusement in my tales? 

Do they admire my mediocre mad crochet skills?

Or are they after dirt?

Looking to see if I talk about them?

Will they judge me?

Get mad?

Do they have a right to?

What about MY rights to MY opinions, MY intellectual property?

Then again...what if I have said something offensive?

Hurtful?

But who hasn't?

These questions danced around and around in my little pea-brain for most of the day...so I checked in with a few friends who's opinions matter to me and each one of them pretty much said the same thing: "Don't flatter yourself!" - they keepz me real like 'dat.

And at the end of the day kids, all I am on here is a Mama Blogger who loves to crochet, take pictures, and share stories with other like-minded-Mama's. I'm not some middle-aged Gossip Girl.

If, from time to time, I go off track and talk a little smack - so be it. I am an imperfect human being. I've been known to point and laugh at inappropriate times, have opinions, and get down right self-righteous. (All shocking revelations, right?) ;)

But what I don't do is I don't: do/say things to be mean-spirited, drink like prohibition is coming back tomorrow, or engage in family matters that are none of my business. I'm also not a liar, liar, pants on fire. Some folks hold gold medals do, but I like sleeping at night.

That said, what you see is not exactly what you get. I'm not a balls-out person who feels the need to express my opinions about everything, all the time, everywhere, to everyone. I'm quiet by nature and I'm happy to let others shine their little lights bright. I'm a watcher, a listener, a learner, and a doer. I can get along with people I don't really like for the sake of harmony for a period of time....but if pushed to my limits, I will get mouthy and stand my ground. I might even throw down, yo. I'm gangsta like that, yo. Ok yeah, I don't even know what that means. Throwing something down means I just have to pick it up and I'm too lazy busy for all that.

In any case, I went ahead and deleted any posts that might be hurtful. I admit there were a few that I had forgotten about. Still, it wasn't easy because I didn't really want to  - whatever I said in those posts may not have shined the best light on a few individuals out there - but it was still my honest take on situations that directly affected me, they were my experiences. People don't just go around tossing family pictures in the dumpster because someone in the shot was less than pleasing. Hell, it's usually the odd one out that gives the picture more character. Likewise, I don't plan on deleting any future editorials - folks are just gonna have to put on their big boy/girl pants/panties and deal.

Besides, those posts are few and far between - because like many a blogger out there? I'm just way too narcissistic & selfish to let it be about others for very long.

Now go smile at someone and make their day.